You Deserve to be in the Room

Hey my loves,

This past week has been good for me mentally and spiritually. I concentrated on God, read daily affirmations, and applied the confirmations received. Though I had random slips during the days, I re-focused and got my goals done. Lately, my goals are shifting me to think bigger about my future. When I started my writing/branding journey years ago, I was hungry and I still am, but in a different way. The difference is my taste buds are changing and my past goals don’t fulfill me anymore. And that feeling is due to growth.

This week, I stayed by my best friend’s house and I brought my work with me. There were moments I would stop what I was doing and I would just sit…still…in a resting place.

I worried less about my problems and also deciphered why I stress over frivolous things that won’t even matter a year from now. It has required me to sit still and thoroughly think and process everything working out in my favor. This personal assignment required me to take a closer look at the toxic traits I picked up through life, and creating healthy habits to solve them. I discovered a new sense of freedom this week by just sitting still. Plus it gave me time to bond with my friend. We opened up about things we had bottled up about life & business and the ups and downs. As I listened to her and exchanged my thoughts, it sunk in that life is beautiful. I love my journey even during the storms and confusing times. The reality is I have the power on how my outlook will be. I have the power to stay scared in a comfort zone and never get uncomfortable. I have the power to do it scared and manifest things I never knew I had in me. Even though its scary, this week was confirmation that I’m getting comfortable with being uncomfortable, and that feeling is strengthening me. The moment I realized that the only limit was me, I started shedding off the layers that needed to die in order for me to evolve. Even when I feel powerless, God sends gentle reminders that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. I still have my light.

Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. – Psalm 119:105

Even though I’m in a still season, I knew it was essential to know I wasn’t alone. I’ve always loved being around people who felt like the sun. There were people who understood what I was going through and I surrounded myself with people of positive energy. I spent last weekend with my big sister who is a huge pile of positive energy. She shared her current goals with me and also this new teaching position she received at a resource center. The part of training was going to certain meetings. As my sister walked in the first meeting, she said she immediately felt  like she didnt belong in the room. The room was filled with individuals with high professions, degrees, and doctorates. As a high school drop out, my sister suddenly didn’t feel “qualified” to be surrounded those kind of people because her success and journey was different from theirs. She literally got up from her seat with her belongings and was heading to the door when all of a sudden God spoke to her and said, “Sit. You do belong here.” And she did just that. She sat in the room and listened.

And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. -John 14:3

As she shared her testimony, it hit me as I started thinking about my own insecurities about what I was lacking in. I’ve experienced times where I didn’t feel “qualified” in life and business. I had been slipping on journaling later. Out of thin air, my sister asked me, “Write your vision and make it plain.”

And the LORD answered me: “Write the vision; make it plain on tablets, so he may run who reads it. -Habakkuk 2:2

I’m always saying “focus now, bloom later” because it’s so important. You receive a lot when you learn to stand still during the times you’re shifting and learning this thing called life. Despite how big your dreams may seem to you, it’s not too big if you can dream it. Let that sink in. While you’re processing, also have the courage to shed your insecurities and give them to God. Your old ways won’t open new doors, and old doors doesn’t lead you to new rooms.You owe it to yourself. Go get it.

Until next time,

Zip. 

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